40 Days in the Desert

September 5, 2019

By Julie Bourbon

This reflection was originally published in National Catholic Reporter under the title, “It’s the least we can do, accompany migrants in spirit by becoming uncomfortable”.

It’s been a little more than a month since I took part in the Catholic Day of Action on the U.S. Capitol grounds, and the world continues to spin off its axis, each day bringing new cruelties from the Trump Administration.

It was so hot the morning of July 18, it made me lightheaded standing outside during the rally before our act of civil disobedience, my first, and I was nervous about it. It seems silly now, to be scared about getting deliberately arrested. Sillier still to need to sit in the shade of a tree after walking a mile to the metro in the heat when my migrant brothers and sisters had walked—were walking still—from Honduras and Guatemala, El Salvador and southern Mexico, in search of a safer, better life.

The Catholic Day of Action rally in Washington, DC.

We were several hundred that day protesting the treatment of those same migrants, and especially the detention of children, at the border. If nothing else, you’d think the thought of children in cages would get people protesting in the streets of Washington, D.C.. But as I said, it was hot, and people here are busy and important, and attention spans are short, perhaps especially during the summer. The Capitol Police officers would tell us later that they’d arrested far more people last year protesting the nomination of Brett Kavanaugh to the Supreme Court than protesting the detention of migrants at the border. For what it’s worth, I protested him, too, although not to the point of arrest. A cynic might say that even my sense of futility has its limits.

It was about four hours from the time of my arrest to my release; I was one of the first in and first out. We were cuffed and patted down and transported on air-conditioned buses (men on one side, women on the other) to a warehouse across town to be re-cuffed and patted down again, seated in rows of folding chairs (men on one side, women on the other), and charged with “loitering, obstructing and incommoding.”

We were, all in all, a jolly group, considering the circumstances, although it was tiresome being handcuffed, and the second set of cuffs was tight. While several of us on the women’s side of the bus had slipped our wrists out of the first set of heavy plastic zip ties, there was no doing that at the warehouse.

But there, at least, I had the good fortune to be seated behind Sister Pat Murphy, a Sister of Mercy who, at 90 years old, is a veteran protester and was no stranger to our present circumstances. Another sister was celebrating her birthday that day, and a third told me stories of being arrested years ago alongside the Berrigan brothers. I was in good company.

Sister Pat Murphy at the Catholic Day of Action rally before being arrested.

Eventually, after paying the $50 fine, I was released and sent back outside into the heat, to make my way home. First, though, and disconcertingly, I received a hero’s welcome from the support team camped on lawn chairs in the shade on the next block. Then, fortified with a handful of tangerines and power bars, I walked to the metro with another protester, chatting about the day’s events. It was another mile home from the station, threading my way on foot through rush hour traffic and thinking about a cold shower and a change of clothes.

And then I remembered the women at Annunciation House in El Paso, the ones we’d met in April on a Mercy delegation to the border. We were sorting piles of donated jeans in the basement, helping migrants find a clean change of clothes after their long journeys from there to here. They were allowed one of everything, but I defy you to deny a young migrant mother a second pair of ankle socks when she asks you—without words, because you don’t speak the same language—to bend that rule for her.

And then I imagined spending more than a month in the dirty, sweaty clothes I was wearing—no bathing, no brushing teeth, no privacy and separated from your children. Wandering 40 days in the desert. Told to “go back where you came from” when where you came from is too dangerous to stay, largely because U.S. policies made it that way. I chose a few hours of inconvenience but many migrants have no such choice.

The author, Julie Bourbon, being arrested after protesting at the Catholic Day of Action.

Which brings me to today, not quite 40 days later. How many showers, how many changes of clothes, how many iced coffees and avocadoes and two-for-the-price-of-one quarts of summer strawberries later? How many of the children who were in detention on July 18 remain there still, separated from their parents? How much worse will it—could it—get when just this week, the administration shredded the protections of the Flores agreement and granted itself the right to detain migrant families indefinitely?

Later the night of our arrests, at a reflection dinner for protestors, Sister Pat, who traveled from Chicago, said she couldn’t not be in Washington for the Day of Action. She also told me I looked tired, which made me laugh at a moment when tears seemed the only sane response to an insane situation. But then I remembered that the migrants I met in El Paso weren’t crying, they were getting ready for the next leg of their journeys, and the next. And it was for them that we had spent the day hot and uncomfortable and inconvenienced. It felt like the very least we could do, to accompany them in spirit and, when possible, in body, until the world stops spinning off its axis and rights itself, no matter how many days in the desert that takes.

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  1. Sister Natalie Rossi

    Your message gave me so much to contemplate on during my comfortable life.
    Thank you!


  2. Virginia Fifield

    Thank you for your reflection. It gives us cause to pause and think.


  3. Judith Woodley

    Thanks for the visual descriptions. It gave me a whole different perspective on the plight of the immigrants, looking for a better life…not having their basic needs met!


  4. Sheila Harrington,RSM

    Thank you for your reflection.


  5. Sue LaVoie

    Julie, thank you for sharing your journey. I felt truly heartsick knowing we are only seeing the tip of the iceberg.


  6. Hunt Mary Elizabeth

    Thank you. You remind us.


  7. Carren Herring

    Thanks for representing many of us who couldn’t be there physically.


  8. Patricia Colla

    Thank you, Julie. Your reflection on your experience nudges me to seek further for what I can do to alleviate the plight of our migrant sisters and brothers.